Country boy shake it for me...

I have dated a lot of boys.

I have dated a lot of guys.

 

I have dated one man.

 

When I was in high school, I was boy crazy.

I was not a slut. I never even had sex in high school.

Mostly because it seemed like every boy I liked, never liked me.

The ones that did like me, I had no interest in.

The thrill of the chase, I suppose.

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When I graduated from high school, I thought forsure I was a grown up

and I would soon have a boyfriend.

Wrong.

I think I was more boy crazy at 19 than I was in high school.

Except now I had a "type"...

If you didnt play hockey, you didnt stand a chance.

The butt of a hockey player is undeniable.

The smell of a hockey player is desirable.

I was hooked. (pun intended)

I was checked,

slashed,

and crushed into the boards by a few of those fools.

Still, I never gave it up.

I came close, but it never happened.

Thank goodness.

 

I did eventually, but not to a hockey player.

I met a guy, moved in with him and thought I was in love.

I know now, it was certainly not love.

 

Then I met someone. I was 20, he was 28.

Boy, oh, boy was he cool!!!

I was in the bar phase of my life, and this guy ruled the roost at my local hangout.

He was a friend of a friend, and quickly became my friend.

I was a smitten kitten, but he had a girl friend, and I was 20 years old.

Why would a 28 year old want to date a kid like me?

We hung out as friends for awhile, we both knew there was something there, and his girlfriend knew it to because she hated me. Some things you just can't help though.

He eventually broke up with her and took a chance on this 20 year old girl.

 

Long story short, I married the guy.

I wasted 8 good years of my life as a stepford girlfriend and wife.

I can't lie, I did love him.

He made me fall in love with him,

and he loved me to.

Although, now I believe he fell in love with the person that he turned me into,

not with the person that I was.

On my wedding night, things happened,

and I knew right then that I had made a mistake.

I tried to make it work, but I also gave up.

I didn't like person I was with.

I got lost,

I didn't even like myself.

After 8 years, I left him.

 

To this day, I don't regret it, and I don't wish I'd done anything different.

I left, and I never looked back.

Thats how I know I made the right choice.

 

 

 

And then, there is Mitch.

Ooooohhhh, Mitch.

This is the man I was put on this earth to love.

This is the man put on this earth to drive me absolutely insane.

 

Mitch is unlike anyone I have ever met, take that how you want.

You really have to know him to understand anything I say about him.

 

As much as I want to punch him in the balls sometimes, I owe him so much.

Most importantly, he gave me the one thing I've always wanted,

he gave me Marshall.

I will forever be grateful for Mitch, for that reason.

But, he also gave me myself.

He allowed me to be who I was, and he fell in love with who I was.

He showed me how to have fun again, and he brought me back to my roots.

The Lindsey that I lost in that 8 year hole in my life, came back.

I have experienced more in 5 years with him than I have in my whole life.

That's saying a lot, because for the most part, I've had a pretty darn good life.

us in Alaska!

 

I dont know what the future holds for us, I cant imagine my life without him in it anymore.

I know that he is my life time love,

I've never loved anyone the way that I love him,

and I never will.